12:02 pm
Saturday, November 21, 2009
nobody understands you;
siying request for me to blog cuz i haven blog for ages, and i already wanted to do so too so here goes.
so recently i went for this camp, and its probably one of the suckiest camp i ever been to. :S
why so? cuz i think the ppl in the camp made it so. /: opps, sorry to say this but i really think so. prob this post will really offend many but well, i am not really bothered abt it. just dun read it cuz i nver ever intended for you to read it.
oh well, im really glad its over, at least i know and is glad that all these have come to an end temporaily. im glad you are out of this sucky environment for the time being.
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but there's smth that i must complain abt. HAHA but there's prob no one who wants to listen to it nor believes): nvm, just for me to vent my anger(:
i am seriously so pissed and upset with
you. if
you think that its her fault, its her forcing them to do all the punishments, let me tell
you, i totally do not think so. well, though i didnt have a chance to stand up for whatever that has happened, but if
you ever read this, know this, in my opinion, she isnt wrong at all, but that its
you in the wrong. i wonder who were the ones happily saying that the more the merrier, give them more punishments. how full of love and care to them were
you in when
you made that statement and comment. even someone as heartless as me did not have that thought crossing my mind. and i really wonder who are the truly
heartless and selfish ones who only wants to inflict the hurt and pain unto them and trying to run away and escape from all the sufferings and punishments by pushing all the blame unto her. even they think and know that they ought to be punished for their mistakes, and are willing to accept the punishments, what makes
you think that their fault and mistakes made was not in anyway due to
your incapability to lead them well. and
you only know how to hide all
your unwillingness to do the punishments with them by blaming her, scolding her, insulting her. i think that she was totally reasonable and just to ask
you to endure thru the punishment session with them. she just wants to be fair to them, she rebutted and said that its not too much, and
you can do it too just to encourage
you to press on and endure. but
YOU do not even understand her at all. and all that
YOU did was to hurt her by saying that she is heartless.
you made yourself sound so loving that she is forcing them and inflicting all the pain unto them by making them do so much punishment in 1 round. but in my opinion,
you are either worrying too much cuz they can handle way much more than that and are even willing to complete all the punishments or that
you are just unwilling and selfishly trying to slack so that
you dun have to do so much punishments
urself.
let me share smth, someone who scolds the unit like crazy in the past told me that she doesnt scold any of them anymore bcuz she feels that she dun have any sense of belonging to the unit like how she does anymore,and not cuz she feels that the person shld not be scolded. and
you, all
you wanted to do is to be the angel infront of everyone, all
you wanted to do is to gain popularity, all
you know what to do is to ask her to do all the scolding, ask her to pump the cadets,so that she will be the devil infront of everyone, causing everyone to hate her. in my opinion, i think that
you are totally selfish, cuz
you nver thought for them, but only for
yourself. i totally despise
you.
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cheer up girl!(: even if the entire world choose not to understand of believe you, i know what you did was right, and i know all that you have done was not because you were heartless, because if you were, you wld not have cried after punishing someone cuz you feel bad and sad for them. some ppl are just not worth your tears, dun worry you will always have your family, classmates, myself here for you! (: and mostly importantly, He understands that you did it all with good intentions. nver heartless!(:
anw, really sorry to get you into any trouble):
