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recently i really feel the fluctuation in my mood.
mood swings HA. well, but things are really bringing me into the pits and yet sometimes, its just myself thinking way too much. i dont know.
i hate it, why am someone who thinks way too much? makes my life so much more difficult for myself. RAHH.
yet again, i cant even express my feelings. i find no words to express it, and even if i do, there isnt any safe grounds to express it. oh wells. im such an insecure person. so anw, i told myself that i will blog to answer your question, but on second thought, all the words just wun appear and i dun feel safe enough to do so.
this is killing me, sigh. anw so shall make it a quick and simple one, not going into any details.
time and time again, i feel upset/disappointed/hurt by things that i thought and believe it is, but eventually found out that im wrong? so thats really dumb and retarded but i cant help to feel that way. like guess im just making myself upset abt mos burger?! HA what a dumb reason to be upset with i guess. true enough, your msg makes sense but well, i still feel that my point is as valid as ever. you still fall in love with it; and it wasnt anytime when i ask you to try it. alrights its getting out of point.
so lets just move on; i guess im upset with anyone who isnt like me. haha, so its just my problem. not others. i need to stop imposing any expectations on anyone; expectations that i have of myself. i mean, im someone who somehow falls into this category whereby i do not have an incline towards being more people structured/unstructured nor task structured/unstructured. i duno how to explain this, but its thru a personality test i done, i fall right in the middle of all. so im a rather flexible person, based on my judgement? when i want to be focused on a task, i can go all out to complete it without distractions. and thats probably how i motivated myself in many circumstances to complete many tasks that seems impossible to many. and yet, when i want to be people oriented, i can forgo any or all structures. cuz i also believe very much on character and relationships. weird person i know. but cuz of this weird nature, i cant help but to be upset when i decide to be focus on certain things, while others are not as certain as i do. what do i mean? i tend to compare others with myself and get agitated, and questions like,"why can i do this for you yet you cant? why can i stay focus and away from distractions yet you arnt doing the same?" so im sorry that i "forced" it unto you, to make you promise to do it for me. cuz i hope i can create some motivation for yourself to push yourself fwd and away from the distractions.but i know i failed. so sorry, just ignore me when i do get upset or smth, cuz most of the time, its just myself being retarded. and thats also one reason why people do not understand why i can be so angry/upset for one moment, and the next i can convince myself 180 degrees differently. but im sorry, i guess thats just the weird me.

alrights i know im going to be posting saddening things AGAIN, so to make my post slightly happier so here goes..


HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAZREEL! <3
i hope you enjoyed your 18th birthday (:

shall blog smth to kill time..
xiner, i haven upload the thing that i want to show u yet ):
sorry! quite busy and have been using hse com these days..
wait till monday okay? :)

its been 2 days since ulp started! haha.
which means there is 2 more days left! (:
and i guess i will be going for campfire today!
smth to look forward to(: lol.
i wonder if yejing is going with me..

monday, shld i meet adeline? hmm.
what time shld i meet her if i do?
im quite lazy and wants to slp more.
so tired ): haven even do my file!! shucks.
sigh sigh sigh.

i haven draw the poster yet too!):
die le lah, hope edwin wun kill me or smth.
ideas ideas, comeee to meee. help!!
inspiration pleaseeeee.

i wonder hows the arrangement btw hazel and tiff.
haha hope tiff makes a great tuition tcher! :D hee.
thanks tiff for agreeing to help me out!<3
love you loads! haha.
jiayou hazel! study hard alrights!<3

a sudden urge that i have;
i want to run back to my first love.
running back into Your arms once again Daddy.

lets' commit everything to the Lord.

God is good
God is good all the time
He put a song of praise
In this heart of mine
God is good all the time
Through the darkest night
His light will shine
God is good
God is good all the time

If you're walking through the valley
There are shadows all around
Do no fear He will guide you
He will keep you safe and sound
He has promised to never leave you
Nor forsake you
And His Word is true

Though I may not understand
All the plans You have for me
My life is in Your hands
And through the eyes of faith
I can clearly see

You are an Awesome God.





im a little worried for you.
somehow i feel that i got you into trouble/shit.
hahahaha. /: howw?
hope that you will read this and remember what i said to you,
connected but not emotionally attached alrights?
i think its too big and sticky situation for you to handle it D:
i cant even managed it):



hmm alrights! probably another picture for what im feeling now (:

You have been so good to me.
You have been so good to me
I came here broken, you made me whole
You have been so good
You have been so good
You have been so good to me

How can I thank you
There is just no way
How can I thank you
No way how could I repay
For your kindness
For your tenderness
For your custom presence here with me

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