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2:08 am

Sunday, May 31, 2009

it hurts; a stab in my heart

alrights, shall blog before heading to bed.
guess i have been a guai kia these days, i reckon. since i have been trying to do what was ask to do every day.

well, i think im believing more and more into the phrase of a picture speaking a 1000 words. so, this is my feeling right now:

it really hurt me so much.

well today had youthphoria. joel, elizabeth and cassandra came to share their personal testimony or what you call that. after hearing cass, i guess i can totally relate to it man. mayb God is trying to speak to me during this really uncertain season of my life. its really comforting to know that i wasnt alone in this kind of situation, WAITING upon the Lord. guess i had nver been faithfully waiting from the start, thats why there is today. sigh, lets hope i will wake up real soon and get into reality and start doing smth abt it. please help me daddy to feel your presence especially learning how to listen to you, waiting upon you and hearing nothing.

okay, lets get myself to think positively, i have to do this. cuz it is seriously horrible to be feeling what im feeling now. stop thinking of negative things, you!!!!! comeon, start thinking of the goodness and blessings given to me!

thanks for not giving up on me, for the quality effort and time spent on me, for the millions of chances you gave, for the love like the symbol of an wide stretch arms, for understanding my fears, never getting angry with my pathetic words/thoughts/deeds. everything done, worth not for me to be negative, but to look at the positive side, how blessed am i.