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11:19 pm

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

UPSET?

this year really started off so rush!
cant believe it that i haven even had time off for myself to enjoy with my beloved family and friends.

finally, projects, assignments, role plays, quizes and tests have finally come to an end.
final lap to go, 2 more weeks of mugging for exams and i'm officially out of NP.

seriously, im not prepared to graduate. but i am really glad that all the piles of mountaineouos work is coming to an end.
dun really know how im feeling, probably great sense of relief?
hah.

life hasnt been good i guess.
im not living the life that i want to.
im so low in everything that i do now.
really wonder, when am i going to wake up and change !!!
time to get up and run 180 degrees in the opposite direction, gongkia!
sigh.

anw today, im feeling unhappy about something that's in my mind now.
again its the you, you, and you method.
i really feel that i dun understand you. i dun understand why would you want to tell you about it. i mean i wun want to tell anyone about it unless you is someone that is really important to me. so im really confused by you now. are you putting up an act infront of me? or are you putting up a front infront of you and me? whats your ultimate motive? mayb not the word motive, but whats on your mind? i really dun get it at all. the more i know you, the more i feel that i dun understand you. its really tiring to be involved in a guessing game or smth. and i dun like it when you dun respect my privacy, by telling you what is going on. sometimes, i feel very exposed. sometimes, i feel very accused. sometimes, i duno how i really feel, its just a feeling that i detest.
and i cant share this with anyone of you out there, cuz you all know smth, i feel so restricted sharing things with you all. like i have to think abt how you will judge me, when sometimes, i just need a listening ear not advices, not judgements.oh well, guess only someone whom im not close to, you are the best listener so far i have met. but i cant always talk to you since we arnt close anyway. life's complicated. give us a break.