contrary to popular belief, sheep are actually hatched from eggs
nah, i'm just kidding.
about me.
Child of God.
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8:41 pm
Thursday, February 26, 2009
check it out! :D
3:17 pm
hear my heart
Oh Lord You've searched me You know my way Even when I fail You I know You love me
Your holy presence Surrounding me In every season I know You love me I know You love me
You go before me You shield my way Your hand upholds me I know You love me
And when the earth fades Falls from my eyes And You stand before me I know You love me Oh.. I know You love me
At the cross I bow my knee Where Your blood was shed for me There's no greater love than this You have overcome the grave Your glory fills the highest place What can separate me now You tore the veil You made a way When You said that it is done
i love You Daddy, more than any other.
When peace, like a river, attendeth my way, When sorrows like sea billows roll; Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say, It is well, it is well, with my soul.
it is well, it is well, with my soul.
I'll walk with you wherever you go
through tears and joy
I'll trust in you
and I will live in all of your ways and your promises forever
Jesus I believe in you Jesus I belong to you you're the reason that I live the reason that I sing with all I am
2:47 am
i think im really dumb and stupid. haha mayb everyone think so too? (:
am i holding on to a hope for miracle that wun occur?
Daddy, i choose to be a fool.
3:50 am
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
fool or foolish?
its 3:51am, and i have not completed studying ): so well done. my 'tap' just cant stop running D: and i feel like puking again. i seriously think that I cant make it through for these few papers im afraid i will just puke on my papers and destroy them during the exams. headache, drowsy,block nose, running tap, coughs. argh, its causing me so much difficulty to stay focus. ):
what more when i start to imagine things. what more when i start to think about things that cant be solved. i know im wasting my time and energy. i know im not prioritising my time well now.
despite how much - wants to draw ties with me, im still stupidly hoping that - will pay some attention to what i want to say. i start to feel like a fool when i know I dun really matter at all.
Daddy, help me through my papers. Be my strength and my portion. Grant me wisdom as I sit for my papers, grant me courage to face the reality.
I pray that it is well, with her soul. that is all that i ask for.
12:07 am
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
blows after blows
you shattered my heart into pieces once again. it really hurts.
1:37 pm
Monday, February 23, 2009
Raining day.
BROKEN PROMISES its been 10 days? haha. since you last talked to me, and probably thats the last day in my life too? as i was walking along the train stations ytd, and see those notices of missing people in our midst. i start thinking that their family members, friends and loved ones will be so upset. i start to think and wonder, i rather choose to think or believe, that you are lost forever, at least i can still miss you or smth, which i cant now. self deluding that prob you will think of me? hah quite dumb.
but often i think that, its better that im lost forever, so that at least you wld think of me at times! haha or mayb if im dead, at least i will cross your mind once a year? on my death anniversary or smth. hahaha :x or mayb if i met with some accident, probably you wld visit me? (which honestly, i doubt you wld anymore) dun worry peeps, just some thoughts thats all.
red cliff.fullerton.underwater world.hort park.cable car.camden park.cold rock.southern ridges of Singapore.australia.great barrier reef.bolt. HERE I COMEnot -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- YOU KNOW ME INSIDE OUT sorry to make you feel like a replacement. thanks for your honesty. to you, its standing in for others till i feel better but to me, its only when someone is willing to sacrifice and spend time with you through the down times, then this friend is really someone thats a bonus from God. and each time when i ask where are you now, its cuz i know that only you care, and if only you were here right now. that during my down times, my first thought is always you. which means alot to me. sorry that im quite useless, that when u are upset, i wasnt even there. i didnt treat you as shit or anything. i didnt think that your presence is not impt.
Daddy, i need to hear you desperately. open my ears and heart to hear you. Increase my trust and faith in you, cause I think im losing them soon cause I dont seem to hear anything from you.
There can be miracles, when you believe Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill Who knows what miracles you can achieve When you believe, somehow you will You will when you believe
3:37 am
Friday, February 20, 2009
Safest Trust, Naked Faith
Psalm 40:1-5 1 I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry.
2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.
3 He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the LORD.
4 Blessed is the man who makes the LORD his trust, who does not look to the proud, to those who turn aside to false gods.
5 Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders you have done. The things you planned for us no one can recount to you; were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare.
Indeed, Blessed is the man whom make the Lord his trust. Despite the situations, I must trust in the Lord ALONE. no one else but Him. Its the issue of heart attitude of trust. If we truly believe our help really comes from God ALONE.
My prayer today is that without reservations, I will cast myself and everything to God. Nothing to fall back on, placing all my eggs into God's basket alone. It means that im not going to use God to fill in the gaps, Im not going to have a plan B if God doesnt intervene the way I want Him to, It means no backup plans, no pride, no confidence in anything else but exclusively to Him. I dont know where to get this amount of courage from, but I believe He will reveal His word. The most dangerous place is the safest, when you have nothing else to hold on to but only God, its the safest trust. Cause I know, God never fails me.
Teach me oh Lord to place ALL my trust in You, Daddy. Blessed is the man whom made the Lord his trust. I know that You have the best plans installed for us. I know Your peace and wellness is with Him who invest all hopes on You. And You never fails anyone. Thankyou Daddy.
on a different note: HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY, YUMING! i hope you will enjoy your birthday today! :D
10:59 pm
Thursday, February 19, 2009
randommm
haha, GREAT MINDS THINK ALIKE. MUAHAHAHA.
this is what studying made us. NICE.
sylvester_goh@hotmail.com says: hey joanne the truth will set you free says: yes? :) sylvester_goh@hotmail.com says: hahaha np sylvester_goh@hotmail.com says: aye, sorry ah i went to kpo ur blog abit the truth will set you free says: hahaha the truth will set you free says: ya? sylvester_goh@hotmail.com says: you look at my blog www.slysworkinglife.blogspot.com sylvester_goh@hotmail.com says: lol i found the coincidence quite funny sylvester_goh@hotmail.com says: HAHA the truth will set you free says: HAHAHAHA the truth will set you free says: OH!!! the truth will set you free says: cool cool! the truth will set you free says: hahaha :D sylvester_goh@hotmail.com says: HAHAHA sylvester_goh@hotmail.com says: i thot eh, i type ur address why my blog come out sylvester_goh@hotmail.com says: hahaha okay damn random
Conclusion: Sly and I have GREAT MINDS.
alrights back to studying.
4:42 pm
Take my life and let it be;
Take my life and let it be consecrated Lord, to thee. Take my moments and my days, let them flow in ceaseless praise. Take my hands and let them move at the impulse of thy love. Take my feet and let them be swift and beautiful for thee.
Take my voice and let me sing always, only for my king. Take my lips and let them be filled with messages from thee. Take my silver and my gold not a might would I withhold. Take my intellect and use every power as you choose.
Here am I, all of me. Take my life, it's all for thee.
Take my will and make it Thine it shall be no longer mine. Take my heart it is thine own; it shall be thy royal throne. Take my love, my Lord I pour at your feet its treasure store Take myself and I will be ever, only all for thee, Take myself and I will be ever, only all for thee.
Here am I, All of me. Take my life, It's all for thee. x3
(Take my life, Lord take my life. take all of me)
Here am I, All of me. Take my life, It's all for thee.
Take my life. Take my will. Take my heart. Take my tears. Consecrated Lord to Thee.
God has so many ways to use my tears for good.And I know He will. I know He will use my tears for good. For His glory. Maybe even the salvation of others. For the joy of others. Anything that's good; Lord please use mine for good. Just like how You used Rachel's tears.
Feel like going for a swim, I just want to soak there and cry out another pool of tears. Or feel like just going for a game, to just free myself from everything and sweat it all out till i cant move any longer. It's such a struggle everyday, so much things to comprehend, I don't even have time to sit down, talk it out and/or cry it out. I can't even do anything and still gotta put up a front or smile. It's in times of feeling totally overwhelmed, helpless and so desperate for God where i know He's there. It's when the slightest task becomes so difficult to even carry out, that we know everything we do is totally dependent on His strength.
Im so tired Daddy.
12:15 am
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Exams
1 RETAIL MGT TOURISM & RESORT 20 FEB 2009 FRIDAY 02:00 PM - 04:00 PM Convention Centre Level 2 Seat No: 666 (the devil's number D: this is bad)
2 TOURISM & RESORT MARKETING 25 FEB 2009 WEDNESDAY 09:00 AM - 11:00 AM Blk 56 04-01 Seat No:35
3 tough papers to handle, 2 sides of tough situations in life, 1 useless me.
pray hard for me please. i duno how to survive.
11:33 pm
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Yes? No? Wait.
You said, Ask and you will receive Whatever you need You said, Pray and I'll hear from heaven And I'll heal your land You said Your glory will fill the earth Like water the sea You said, Lift up your eyes The harvest is here, the kingdom is near
You said, Ask and I'll give the nations to you O Lord, that's the cry of my heart Distant shores and the islands will see Your light, as it rises on us
O Lord, I ask for the nations
1 month, Oh Lord, open ears and heart. Your will, not mine be done.
11:19 pm
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
UPSET?
this year really started off so rush! cant believe it that i haven even had time off for myself to enjoy with my beloved family and friends.
finally, projects, assignments, role plays, quizes and tests have finally come to an end. final lap to go, 2 more weeks of mugging for exams and i'm officially out of NP.
seriously, im not prepared to graduate. but i am really glad that all the piles of mountaineouos work is coming to an end. dun really know how im feeling, probably great sense of relief? hah.
life hasnt been good i guess. im not living the life that i want to. im so low in everything that i do now. really wonder, when am i going to wake up and change !!! time to get up and run 180 degrees in the opposite direction, gongkia! sigh.
anw today, im feeling unhappy about something that's in my mind now. again its the you, you, and you method. i really feel that i dun understand you. i dun understand why would you want to tell you about it. i mean i wun want to tell anyone about it unless you is someone that is really important to me. so im really confused by you now. are you putting up an act infront of me? or are you putting up a front infront of you and me? whats your ultimate motive? mayb not the word motive, but whats on your mind? i really dun get it at all. the more i know you, the more i feel that i dun understand you. its really tiring to be involved in a guessing game or smth. and i dun like it when you dun respect my privacy, by telling you what is going on. sometimes, i feel very exposed. sometimes, i feel very accused. sometimes, i duno how i really feel, its just a feeling that i detest. and i cant share this with anyone of you out there, cuz you all know smth, i feel so restricted sharing things with you all. like i have to think abt how you will judge me, when sometimes, i just need a listening ear not advices, not judgements.oh well, guess only someone whom im not close to, you are the best listener so far i have met. but i cant always talk to you since we arnt close anyway. life's complicated. give us a break.