11:44 pm
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
I am sad.
there is just so many things stuck in my head.
that i cant get them out.
sigh ):
I know im not supposed to compare
but im not comparing.
I just wanted to use others as my role model.
to learn to be more lyk a Christ thru a more practical way,
learning from ppl of faith who I can see and understand.
but many a times, i just cant help but feel discouraged and small.
it seems lyk others can so easily trust You in everything they do.
although everytime when ppl ask of advises, i will say, "Stay close to Him"
but what about myself? ):
im so disappointed in myself.
cuz im not a good role model at all.
sigh. ):
i feel that i can nver be good enough, when i always tell others that, "hey, we are all made righteous thru Christ"
so whats with me?!?! ): why do i contridict everything i said to others. ):
and i just duno why my brain just contridicts with my heart! ):
i always tell others dun let Satan put thoughts into your mind to bring you down,
why am i letting Him attacking my mind myself. ):
RAHH, im in a i-duno-how-i -feel-now state. ):
typing so much, i still duno why i am sad. ;'(
maybe i know.
mayb i dun.
mayb i know.
mayb i dun.
DADDY HELP! )':
