11:44 pm
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
I am sad.
there is just so many things stuck in my head.
that i cant get them out.
sigh ):
I know im not supposed to compare
but im not comparing.
I just wanted to use others as my role model.
to learn to be more lyk a Christ thru a more practical way,
learning from ppl of faith who I can see and understand.
but many a times, i just cant help but feel discouraged and small.
it seems lyk others can so easily trust You in everything they do.
although everytime when ppl ask of advises, i will say, "Stay close to Him"
but what about myself? ):
im so disappointed in myself.
cuz im not a good role model at all.
sigh. ):
i feel that i can nver be good enough, when i always tell others that, "hey, we are all made righteous thru Christ"
so whats with me?!?! ): why do i contridict everything i said to others. ):
and i just duno why my brain just contridicts with my heart! ):
i always tell others dun let Satan put thoughts into your mind to bring you down,
why am i letting Him attacking my mind myself. ):
RAHH, im in a i-duno-how-i -feel-now state. ):
typing so much, i still duno why i am sad. ;'(
maybe i know.
mayb i dun.
mayb i know.
mayb i dun.
DADDY HELP! )':
7:36 pm
Monday, October 29, 2007
Are we running for nothing?
Life is like a race.
We can all be doing everything that seems to make our race a good looking one,
doing good for others, obeying rules,
but when we reach the final ending point, heaven
we cant enter if we cant find our names in that Book of life,
we cant enter the gates of heaven.
Jesus said, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me" (John 14:6).
Did we sign our names in that Book of Life by accepting Him?
Are we trusting in Jesus?
are YOU running for nothing?
1:13 am
Obedience is faith in action
obedience is faith in action!!
AHHHH
i have been such a pig these days.
so lazy to update my blog
and i haven been studying!
):
sigh
alot alot alot of things i want to blog abt.
shall do itttt ermmmm, tml? heh. we will see.
Sorry for abandoning u blog!
ahah
OBEDIENCE IS FAITH IN ACTION!
I DUN WANT TO DO IT, BUT I WILL!
3:03 am
Saturday, October 20, 2007
HEY EVERYONE!!
if u cant hear the full song on my blog, and only hear 30 secs
and you really wish to hear the songs, haha
ask me for my imeem password then u all can hear the full song on my blog le! :D
yea! :) haha.
2:22 pm
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
a brand new week
its the start of school again.
God always has His plans for us,
sometimes things that we always wanted
arnt His plans for us.
though my past week of preparing for school
wasnt any way like what i had want it to be.
but i know, thru the events and things that had happen,
i know He is preparing me in His own ways.
so in all things,
i will give thanks.
becuz, He is Lord.
(:
-just wanna tell you, im glad being a part of your world. and i just hope i can be a part, not apart from your world for my whole lifetime.
11:15 pm
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
what's next?
8:11 pm
Monday, October 08, 2007
He will carry me.
I call, You hear me
I’ve lost it all
And it’s more than I can bear
I feel so empty
You’re strong
I’m weary
I’m holdin’ on
But I feel like givin’ in
But still You’re with me
And even though I’m walkin’ through
The valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I’ve been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will
Ever need
And He will carry me
I know I’m broken
But You alone
Can mend this heart of mine
You’re always with me
And even though I’m walkin’ through
The valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I’ve been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will
Ever need
And He will carry me
And even though I feel so lonely
Like I’ve never been before
You never said it would be easy
But You said you’d see me through
The storm
And even though I’m walkin’ through
The valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I’ve been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will
Ever need
And He will carry me
5:24 pm
1 week left of my hols.
its 1 week more to the reopening of sch.
time to prepare my heart and mind for a new adjustments again.
well, i can say.
mayb i really didnt do much this hols,
but im glad to say,
i really have grown closer to Him this break.
doing things that makes me feel fulfilled.
i guess i have no regrets that my hols wasnt as fun, or as exciting as others.
many new task up ahead.
many new challenges to face.
i know i will be all ready for all these,
becuz He has and will always be with me. (:
Thank God for the many times He carried me thru. (:
and i trust that whatever lies ahead of me, He has a plan for me.
5:14 pm
Dying Passion?
Thanks Henry and Jianfu sir for your help! haha
though i still duno how to put more than 1 song HAHA/:
quite lousy of me. HAHA
and thanks Bertha and Jianfu sir for your concern (:
im fine just venting my thoughts. hahaha
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Passions do die, and gets revive.
thats what i believe in now.
and currently all i can say,
is its a dying passion to me.
mayb one day it will be revived again.
mayb it will be totally forgotten by me.
who knows?
lesson learn:
learn to give isnt enough.
we must learn to receive too.
its a two way thing.
if not you will experience a dying passion.
just lyk me.
12:49 am
Thursday, October 04, 2007
hmmm, can someone teach me how to blog songs on the blog? HAHAHA
as in alot alot of songs can b put into the blog kind.but not itunes. hahaha (:
6:51 pm
Monday, October 01, 2007
A lifetime regret? A plan for me?
sighh.
E is for emo.
a line i always say/hear.
mayb now its a time that its my turn to get EMO.
hahahaha.
i was looking back and thinking thru the past 1 and a half years of my life.
then i realised that with my current results.
i can just DREAM only to go to a uni. ): sigh
i need to get lyk 4.1333333333333 for the next 3 sem to get a avg GPA of 3.5
WHICH IS IMPOSSIBLE ): cuz max is 4.0
so i can only DREAM. sigh.
is it a lifetime regret for not studying hard the past 1 1/2 yrs?
for wasting time on commitments that none in my family supported?
or was that something worthwhile in exchanged for my future.
sighs.
and with my new timetable/schedule,
i need to give up some commitments.
so after was everything a waste?
sighh, i wonder.
