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I PRATA YOU!! >.<
haha. ;D

I feel like crying. ):
I need to let it out.
but you know i just dun do such a thing.
this feeling sucks.
RAHH.
i tot everything has come to an end.
i tot everything will just be fine.
BUT!
I just need to account for the actions of mine.
OR IT WILL JUS CONTINUE TO HAUNT ME.

):
YOU SAID I AM YOUR ROLE MODEL.
YOU SAID THAT YOU LOOK UP TO ME.
YOU SAID THAT YOU ARE PROUD OF ME AND THE THINGS I DO.
YOU SAID THAT YOU ARE SO GLAD AND COMFORTED CAUSE THEY ARE IN GOOD HANDS OF MINE.
YOU SAID THAT YOU BELIEVE I CAN DO IT.

I SAID THAT I WANT TO BE A WITNESS FOR YOU.

IM JUST SUCH A LETDOWN.
IM SO UNWORTHY.
IM SORRY TO ALL THE MANY "YOU"s AROUND.


IM SO SORRY, DADDY! ):
AND I PROMISE I WUN DO IT AGAIN. ):
FATHER, RESCUE ME.

I SURRENDER ALL TO YOU.

Stained Glass Masquerade;
Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small


I'm forgiven, because you were forsaken
Im accepted you were condemed
And im alive and well
Your sprit is within me
Because you died and rose again

Amazing Love how can it be
That your my king would died for me
Amazing Love I know its true
Its my joy to honor you
in all i do i honor you

You are my king, you are my king ,
Jesusyou are my king
Jesus you are my king
AMAZING LOVE <33

RAHHHH.
im waiting for the ppt to be transferred.
haha, im so scared cannot wake up okay! ):
anyway
WE FINALLY HAD OUR PCG AGAIN! YAYNESS!
haha. today wasss great!
though i miss my show again. haha
and yuming and i had our dinner in MOS!
YUM YUM! ;D
MOS reminds me of CHI SHAN! haha.
lol. I MISS YOU!
jiayou yea! dun always tire yourself out.
lack of slp ehh. ):
haha. YOU CAN DO IT!
okies. i give up waiting okay! its 330! im so dead. haha
shall continue tml. ;D

YAY!
i survived through another tough night.
haha. thankyou DADDY! for i couldn't have done it without you.
i can do it cox u provided me with strength! (:
and the many pple around to encourage me!
thanks alot to all! ;D
I LOVE YOU ALL!

time to slp! (: hope i can wake up on time! heh
NIGHTS EVERYONE! :D
and to those still busy chionging, lyk benben, JIAYOU!


rahh. stop it. ):
you know its nt true.

:D
i love going to church.
i love my Daddy, God.
i love my best friend, Jesus!
i love my fellow church friends!

:D :D :D :D :D :D


thanks to all who cared (:
i appreciate it alot! ;D

RAHHH.
):

im so disappointed in you.
im so upset with you.
im so scared bcox of you.
i feel so unworthy cox of you.

you! mess up my life.
you! make me feel so unholy.
you! make me feel oh so lousy and sucky.

you! get a life!
you! stop it!
get out of my life.
stop controlling my life.

i want a brand new you!

im sorry Father, forgive me.
have mercy on me.
help me.

afterall i realised,
you are me.
:'(

i want a brand new ME! not you

haha.
i have been trying so hard to post something the past two days but fail ):
hahaha. but its okay! try again later. ;D
anyway. i got new things to blog man!
since when i found out abt this and really wanted to tell someone.
yuming has jus went to slp. haha
so. i shall blog it! haha.

well, since i afraid that i cant wake up tml. i think im nt slping tonight. /:
hope i wun collapsed. haha
and i had nth better to do. so i decided to be more concern abt the lives of others ard me.
haha. and tada! i jus click and when to visit my dearest junior blog.
and i saw something! haha.
let me kope. haha. and it goes.

"i was snugly warm in my sleeping bag. fion, irsyad and hengguang slept in stretchers, huiling slept ON TOP of her sleeping bag, qihui ma'am, leonard sir, joanne and chanel ma'am slept in the cold floor. all of them woke up freezing. and all of us squeezed into the red cross room, sleeping."

heh. toking abt fdc camp this year. oh well, tts nt the main point.
but YUMING did you see that! i bolded it! haha.
i mean! heh. i wonder is tt GOOD or BAD huh?! ;D or /:
hahaha. i dunno how to say but im kinda HAPPY! haha
but erm. again, WEIRD /: lol.
im so different from the others now. "special treatment" huh /:
hahaha. GOOd or BAD? i can't really decide.
its okay. im still more filled wit HAPPINESS than anything else for now. haha
sometimes, its jus confusing. lol. oh well.


and yada yada.
and i had nth better to do. so i friendster hop too!
then i saw a link to a blog. so i decided to visit it too. haha! and
oh my tian. i guess no one really understood this line except me?
haha. koped again.

"I WANT TO BE BY YOUR SIDE DURING YOUR DARKEST HOURS."

hahaha. okies randomness.
this is nt the main topic though.
the above on is. haha
just /: so yea.

okies back to trying what i wan to post the past 2 days! ;D

TADA!
my third attempt. haha
okies! here goes.

on the 17th jan, WEDESDAY
i went to SEOUL GARDEN for lunch!
oh my tian la! it definitely BURN a hole in my pocket please. lol
and actually it my first time going there /:
so yea. we went there to celebrate KAY's birthday! (:
haha. its lyk ONE of the first time i nv pangseh my classmates
haha. since im always so BUSY /:
hahaha. and i know its boring to see words. so some photos! ;D
thanks to lin na for the contribution of photos! hahaha
enjoy!



april, lee chiu, KAY!, peiling





peiling, leanne, angeline





eileen, wei xia, lin na





celina,me,jennifer





MY ALL TIME PROJECT GROUPMATES! <33

HIM. YOU. HER. ME.

P.U.S.H.!

): help!!

I KNOW,
HELP IS ON THE WAY.
finally, its over ;D

oh WAIT! its not.
no longer the same.
a brand new you.


Once again;
When true love is involved, there is bound to be sacrifices.

OH! i keep forgeting to tell xueli.
let me paste here. so i wun forget.
or she can see it herself. haha

XUELI! your darling annabel says,
"but it is kinda weird to go to ac everyday for school instead of crescent, and not seeing tay xueli everyday in the library or some weird part of school (haha)"

awwww. she misses you! haha.
go visit/call/sms/talk to her.
hahaha.

and..
EVONNE MA'AM! :(
takkaire okay!!
hope you will get well sooon!
rest well too!!

woah! its lyk so long since i wanted to post abt the impt thing i learn can!
haha. and its lyk so long ago liao, like so sian diao.
lol. but anyway!
i learn/discover the importance of studies once again!
nt that i didn't know it is impt.. but i mean..
like i found the purpose/moltivation once again! haha
and its lyk.. all thanks to JOYCE! ;D
bet she didn't know it. haha
but yeaa! okies. hopefully
it would b a BIG wave that everyone of us can ride on!

haha. today i went out with YUMING! ;D
hahaha. its been really really long since i last went out to like buy presents and etc.
i think like at least a few mths ago. lol or year /:
then we went orchard. haha! and i was late
SORRY YUMING!
im forever late la :'(and we brought many many presents today.
feel so accomplished! yay! ;D
but anyway!
i feel so broke now. hahaha76"bugs" to digit 5 right?now. i think the most is lyk 10 "bugs" to digit 5!
ahhhh! :(
dun dare go atm anymore.
xin tong xin tong!
im such a stingy person okay! haha. and today i spend lyk a total of..
78.96.. round off.
79 bucks!shucks! wahhh.
I LOVE THOSE PPLE SO MUCH SIA! lolspend so much money! /:haha. i cannot use money to measure love. lol okies.oh wait. forgot my breadtalk.
I SPEND A TOTAL OF $80.06!!
WAH WAH WAH!!
i think my bubble heart will need to break 100 times! haha
nvm. its worth it! ;Dnt spend on myself what. haha. can la! zhi de! hahathen went dover for dinner.
and we met up with FION! ;D
haha. okies and thus i decided to go back to fairfield to see see.
cannot b so heartless afterall. haha
then went for prayer meeting! ;)
first time i actually go man! oh wait its the second time
haha. pastor bernard made me pray okay!
wahhh. was so scared. lol.
infront of everyone?! and its lyk first time in my life i need to stand there and pray?!
haha. almost killed myself due to maluation. haha
anyway! its over! yay! ;D
and im gladd that i had my first try!
haha. so next time wun b tt scary i guess. haha

oh oh! im so happy now! haha.
but i shan't disturb anyone now.
and since its lyk so minor. /:
so i shall announce it to myself! ;)
haha! yay! it has past 12 which means its 11th!
and means..
sms counter - zero!
outgoing call duration - 00:00:00!
yay yay! ;D happy happy.
finally can sms again.
wat a tough time. hahaha
<33!
and i think there is no sch tml! ;D
wheee! so so happy!

oh and so sorry xueli! didn't reply you.
are u better le?
takkaire yea!!
rest well and drink more water!!
get well soon!
will keep ya in prayer!
hope to see you later! ;)
loves! <33

oh and eugene!
yes i link you.
and agreed to let you link me. haha
be honoured kay! hahahaha.

YAY!
finally weekend is here! (:
haha. i guess this week wasn't as bad as i expected it.
Praise the Lord!
to all those who had a tough first week of school,
WELLDONE! ;D
you all had survived and became STRONGER!
wheee!
lets recap!
this entire week is flooded with PROJECTS!
sleeping almost everyday at 3plus 4 plus doing projects. TIRING.
yawns. and im proud to say, IM DONE WITH WHAT IM SUPPOSED TO DO TODAY! (:
haha tt's why im here!
haha. and yea!
many many things happen
but im NOT stress about it. seriously, believe me.
or rather i dun feel stress. haha
mayb cox i experience b4 more stressful times, thus i dun feel it now.
see! my theory is right! haha. surviving thru tough times makes us stronger! wahaha
actually nt my theory.
is a line that JIAYEE used to encourage me!
i miss JIAYEE so much! :(
anyway, i guess since i promised
the only thing i can do.
i shall P-U-S-H! real hard!
Pray Until Something Happens!
haha.
oh and!
today was great!
oh i mean yesterday! haha
i woke up at 2plus /:
seriously super tired. haha.
and i went to the airport! ;D
its been quite some time since i last went.
but everytime go also quite saddening. seeing pple leaving.
dun think really got pick pple up b4. haha.
but yea! today was cool!
first time going to airport to do reflections and resolutions!
woah! it really come in handy since i was so BUSY and didn't really have time to do my reflections for 2006, and resolutions for 2007!
i felt so accomplished after that! ;D wahaha!
James 4:13-16
i learn that life is uncertain.
yes thus our life is not in our control.
so what is there to boast abt? haha
must learn to avoid being prideful and yes.
humility. haha. (:
mus remember to wear NEW clothes! yes yes.
plus kindness, patience, meekness!
i mus always place God in my perspectives and depend on Him completely all the time.

Let His will, not mine be done.

great encouraging verse i came across today!
"Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God"
Matthew 4:4

the Lord says,"Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?"
Isaiah said,"Here I am. Send me!"
Isaiah 6:8

hahaha. and after a long long chat with yuming today,
i was so late! >.< haha
im so sorry chishan!
and i went to raffles to take photos for project.
but lousy me, dun dare to take photos. hahaha!
so thankew chishan! ;D
haha. and i had free pizza for dinner! yum yum!
free coke!
free aircon!
and...
nicee photos to view!
thanks to chishan again! hahaha
yay! really really a big thankew!
it wasn't boring! no worries!
i had a great time! (:
and waiting for the bus with me. when its so late!
u shouldn't have.

oh forgot to mention!
thanks jazreel! for the long, nice, sweet, touching message!
haha ;D
i still haven reply you! haha. nvm i shall type out wat i wan to say. so when i see you online
mayb can jus cut and paste hee.
okies. haha you are most welcome! ;D
its the most and the least i can do for you all! haha.
serena said that all i can give is encouragements. haha
i guess she was so right. haha.
it seems so much. yet so little. wahaha.
but im glad its sumhow useful haha!
its my pleasure to serve all of you!
i told someone today that im here to b a servant. haha
guess she was shocked! haha.
but yea. service is all i can give (:
actually i didn't do anything when u was upset.
all i did was stood there. haha. lyk some bai chi. lol
but im glad it comforted you! heh.
LOL! neverending encouragement yea? haha.
tot you said, MA'AM! dun make me more nervous le! haha
;p yea you are welcome again! hah.
haha. whole squad. yea mus aim to care for all (:
i know i can do it! haha.
ahh! wo dan dang bu qi. its so sweet of you to have said tt!
nahh, im sure there are many many greater ones out there.
im glad that you all are oso the first batch that i could learn so much from too! (:
nt saying ur seniors have nth to learn abt. haha but yea.
its jus different (:
i mayb one of your(all of you) reasons, but your(all of you) are my only reason!
:P haha and without me you all would have melt,
but without you all i wouldn't be who i am today.
YOU ARE MOST WELCOME AGAIN!
ITS MY PLEASURE! ;D
LOVE YOUU!

andd..........
more thanksgiving! haha
yuhua, your christmas card! haha..
cut and paste oso wahaha
lazy me.
though christmas is over,
still BLESSED CHRISTMAS and the year ahead! (:
blessed to be a blessing. u are blessed cox i am too! heh
haha. okies skip the super cute anf retarded part /:
WELCOME!
hey! if its not my job, then whose is it? hahaha
aww. unless im no longer a crescent VI, then it wun b my job. haha
haha. yeap im sure. bonding! haha
xiner once said during debrief that she had bonded with the ma'ams
including me /:
hahahaha! but bet no one remembers haha.
nah, didn't let me down. (:
im nt one who goes after achievements.
haha. eating is good! ;D no prob!
haha. well, how can i accept!
where got cadets treat VI one?!
hahaha. so aww. im sorry. continue to feel bad :P
im glad that to know that u all are built up! woah i can be a contractor next time ;D
hahaha. yea (: but can't help it that i have bubble heart! hahaha!
but no worries i understand. and bubble heart are easily blown back again! haha
who says there is no results! there is okay!
SEE that u all are so BUILD UP now. HAHA!
tts the results. lol
yea yea! im sure that's also a great thing that happened for me too!!
but dun thank me. thank God! to God be the glory! (:
yay! LOVE YOUU TOO!

anddd..
beloved evonne ma'am!
thanks for everything u done for us time and time again!
for looking after my GANG. loll and me!
really appreciate all your effort!
thanks for sharing with me!
and listening to all my rubbish. hahaha
thanks alot alot alot!
for the apple pies!
for making the effort to come all the way down to giving apple pies to me.
im so touched!!
and waited alone for so long.. so sorry abt it!
im so slowwww. haha
really glad to have you ard!
i know that u haven been having feeling great recently.
its okay!
i understand too!
hope that u will feel better knowing that all your efforts put in.
has really touched many lives out there!
and we are all the many examples u have touched!
so dun give up! jiayou!!
lyk u told me, if we didnt do it.. it wouldn't us anymore! haha
so yeaa! cheer up! and continue to b the blessing for the pple ard u!
if u need someone, i will be there for you too! ;D

woah! and its 510am! /: haha. today last day of work!
finally!
tiring tiring tiring.
time to finally able to get more rest.
thank God.

im excited to meet You tml in Church again! (:
dwelling in Your presence.

firstly,
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! (:
2007! whee! my favourite number. lol

well, i guess i shall recaps and reflect on my past year first.
i think 2006 was really a rollercoaster ride for me.
times when i was so so so high.
times when i was so so so low.
haha. i guess the year started well with 40dop and i caught the wave thru my first half of my year very well. but as time pass, i think it got bad to worse. and i ended the year 2006 with lotsa mess in my life. ahhh this new year came so fast. and i have no much time to enjoy, relax etc.
and soon flooded with work again!
STRESSSS! :(
was quite a sad end..

but thru these..
i learn to really surrender everything to Him once again.
and know that no matter how big a mess i have created,
He is always there for me to run to,
He is always there to make my mess RIGHT again!
and nothing is too BIG for my GOD! XD

saw this nice encouraging line from xiaoyuan's nick.
never tell God how Big your homework is,
tell your homework how BIG my GOD is! (:
nice nice. thanks xiaoyuan!
i guess it really came at the right time.
when im so stuck with all the projects that im facing now. ahhh!
haha. and thanks yuming!
cox u said this inspiring line to me today!

i will deny myself, take up my cross daily, to follow you; courage says:
good la! u no sch..
i will deny myself, take up my cross daily, to follow you; courage says:
enjoying yourself
i will deny myself, take up my cross daily, to follow you; courage says:
while i suffer
Yuming... says:
aiya...suffering moulds ur character
Yuming... says:
jia you!

i will remember that! thanks yuming! xD
i mus learn to not complain too much! haha
and also to put on my new year clothes that God has given to me! (:
kindness, humility, compassion, patience, gentleness!

and live by my favourite verse! (:
Jesus said to them, "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me."
Luke 9:23

YEA! 2007, here i come! (:

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