1:17 am
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
ren shan bei ren qi?
so should we continue to b nice then?
but yet.. should we really b that calculative?
yi ren rang yi bu, hai kuo tian kong?
on the other hand,
should we really stand up for our rights?
but again.. if we dun do it, who would?
someone has to xi shen xiao wo.
its just so contridicting.
caught in the middle.
sighs.
father, tell me.
wat is right?
wat is wrong?
but i guess i would choose still to b that doormat.
12:16 am
Sunday, October 29, 2006
update!
okay okay!
updating. haha xD
school has started for me!
while many has either ended exams,
or in the mids of preparing for exams.
bt anyway!
i guess it was really God's grace that
they could move on (:
He really does answers prayers! xD
IM SURE IT WAS ALL HIS GRACE THRU OUR FAITH!
so dun give up trusting Him!!
and learn to cherish your chances yea! ;)
and we must GIVE THANKS to HIM! (:
God will never give up on you! He would nv forsake you!
and as long you seek His kingdom first,
He will provide! (:
remember yea!
btw! i learn something on sat!
time to share again! haha
its about education. (: haha
education is drawing out something that is within.
to become what we were meant to be.
its a mean to become the person He intended us to be.
With our potential, inclinations and possibilities, we oso must learn to understand and accept limitations.
Are we aware of our limitations?
Do we feel comfortable with our limitations?
therefore, do remember that we arn't supermans!
However,
despite tt, we must still continue to take up the challenge daily!
its our responsibility!
knowing that we have limitations, helps us to reply more on Him not ourselves!
we oso mus set challenging goals for ourselves, bcox if it is nt challenging, why would we need to be discipline to achieve it?
SO AIM HIGH!
lets fulfill our highest potential in life!
but with that, it means PAY NOW, PLAY LATER.
makes decisions and plans to resist the temptations.
have commitment to the priorities of life! (:
not forgeting. PARTY TIME and rewarding yourself as encouragment!
to also find joy and discipline to moltivate us to work harder every single time!
have doubts and think that this is impossible for me?
remember,
LIFE IS ALL ABOUT TRUSTING HIM.
its our RESPONSIBILITY even if we think we dun have the ABILITY.
BY GRACE THRU FAITH, He will carry us through. (:
so dun give up!!
EVERYONE NEEDS SOMEONE TO JOURNEY WITH US FOR ACCOUNTABILITY!
have you found yours yet? (:
8:27 pm
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
emo
it seems lyk suddenly everyone around me is feeling emo.
haha.. or mayb its jus me, myself and i.
lol then make me thinks that everyone is feeling this way.
oh well.
life is filled with
up and downs. high and low.
anyway
i managed to spend time today with myself.
haha sounds weird but yup.
on my bus trip from sch, to waiting for bus, walking to busstops and bus ride home.
a total of 1 hr plus.
so many many things happen
come and go.
im feeling very tired.
very tired of many things thats going on.
(haha, nth to do with evonne ma'am your blog (: )
i feel frustrated.
i feel disappointed.
i feel upset.
i feel lousy.
i feel lost.
im not satisfied.
this is not wat i want.
8:24 pm
Monday, October 16, 2006
back from beijing
YAY!
im back from Beijing! (:
did anyone miss me?!
lol.
time for updates! xD
2:04 pm
Friday, October 06, 2006
passiton
ahh! so much thoughts not pen.
nvm. shall take abt recent ones. (:
I JUST CAME BACK FROM PASSITON CAMP!
wheeee`
haha. its just so so wonderful!
my thoughts before the camp; I guess all i wanted was to learn and get equip with the skills.that's all. i expected so little.
but after the camp!
i can tell you all that i learn so much so much! (:
and it was super fun! hehe.
everyone MUST go for it next yr yea!! haha.. jkjk
anyway, passiton camp means.
passion with 't' representing a cross!
and pass.it.on! xD
yup! haha. so on the 2nd oct,
we meet up together for lunch! xD
my group was supposed to think of a name starting with 'p'
haha. and thanks to my bro's suggestion.
we are known as the POWERPUFF!
hahaha. cox we are out to save the world!
lol. i love the POWERPUFF!
it consist of our groupleader KEVIN! staff RON!
and lovely group members LIJIA, JOHNNY, ZHENGBIN, SINYI, MELVIN, CONSTANCE!
and lastly, myself! haha.
i guess God works in his miraculous ways!putting all different dynamics together,
making such a fun and loving group althogether! xD
we had losta fun together, playing our mixture game of MING, MANG, MONG! ,WHO? WHAT? HUH?, HEARTATTACK!,007!
hahaha..
highlights of camp;
first night was rachel's tears
its the first time i hear her dad shared
second time watching the funeral
and i read the bk b4.
but no matter how many times i have watched/read b4,
i always get to learn new things out of it.
she nv fails to inspire me.she reminds me once again of how God make use of ordinary pple like us to do great works!she reminds me that actually all we need to do is to trust the Lord and surrender all to Him.
haha! and i tot it was so amazing how God prepare her, her family and the other victims b4 the event happen! that she even know she is not going to live long.
i was thinking is God preparing me for death too?! haha. since i tot that i wun live long too. lol
next; games!
wheee` daniel and melvin are great man!
everyone enjoyed ourselves even though i tot that the games were simple.
but! HAHA! its so fun! (:
next time wan to play games, mus ask them to plan man!! xD
haha. and thanks for asking me to b ur game master! WAHAHA.
so i dun need to suffer. lol.
then; power night!
it was really a wake up call.
that i have been so indifferent abt my campus.
saying that i want i want i want to reach out to others.
yet neglecting my campus, and only focus of others.
it really hit me that i shouldn't choose my targets,
but to reach out to everyone ard me.
street evangelism!
whheee'
this is my very first time doing street E
i mus say its a great wonderful experience.
preparations;
we go through basic training and had role-playing
then we had check-out sessions!
i was quite scared to go for street E.
cox im someone who erm dun really talk to strangers
moreover is sharing with them abt Christ!
oh my. i was so scared that i wun dare to go up.
but at least its good! (:
cox of my fears, i fully relied on God! and he work miracles!
haha. and our target was 5 surveys, share 2.
i tot it was an easy job.
so,when we first reach tampines.
tabi was lyk okies lets start and she asked me to start first!
and i was lyk. ahhhh! me?! me?! so i was so lost and approached the first lady.
and i was thinking in my head, '' oh no! how? i think i forgot how to start!"
haha. but the lady rejected me.
so i was quite demoralised and felt that.
i tot it was easily, jus take up my courage and share.
but actually its hard cox pple will reject me!
then we move on to share with two gals.and the gal that i shared with was a christian! haha
but i was only lyk 2 pages only. and they run away cox the bus was here.
so i felt more demoralised.
then after tt we keep meeting pple who rejected us.
till we met zhengbin!
i guess that God knows that i was demoralised so he got Zhengbin to encourage me!
haha. zb suddenly asked me, " do you know how to speak chinese?"
i was lyk," err yea i guess. so so la. why?"
he pointed to the poor old man sitting alone at the corner and said," see the old man down there? he needs someone to share to him."
i was so touched by zb. i could really feel his passion for the lost ones.
and so i went with him.
but we didn't succeed.
after that, zb shared with a muslim guy.
the guy was very friendly.
and zb sounded super experienced!
i was very encouraged/inspired by him.
HAHA! xD
then we meet a group of gals.
so zb ask me," do u feel God's prompting to approach the group of gals?"
i hesitated cox there were 4 of them, and only me alone!
but i answered him," okay! lets' go!" without processing.
then when we caught up,
i was lyk so scared! lol.
but i tapped on the gal nearest to me and ask her to do a survey for me
then she stopped to help.
when i as her if i could share the booklet with her, she was very unwilling.
then suddenly, i heard someone shouted, " HEY!!"
it was constance! haha and she know one of the gals!
and they started chatting!
so i was lyk, " hmm, since u have to wait for ur fren, why nt jus spare your time for me? "
hahaha. and she had no other choice but to listen to me. =p
and she was the FIRST PERSON that i shared finish the entire booklet! YAY!
haha. though she didn't accepted Christ, but im glad that at least she was my first successful case! (:
then after that, cons and i were waiting for tabi and sinyi
then we approached 3 gals who stood there for very long.
me: "hi, could you help us to do a survey? (:"
gal 1: " errr, no thanks."
me: "hmm, we wun take long, just 5 to 10 mins? and since u all seems to b not in a rush? ;D"
gal 2: -peeps at our survey- "OH! i do this survey b4!!"
cons: " really? are u sure? i think its different (:"
gal 2: "im sure! last yr some church ask me to do it!"
cons: "no la, its not the same. (: we are not representing any church(:"
cons: -took out the booklet- (SMART MOVE!!) " have you seen this booklet b4?"
gal 1, 2, 3: NO.
cons: "see, i told you its a different survey. (:"
(the three gals hesistating)
me: "hmm, you dunwan to do survey right? nvm, its alright. ;D"
me: "actually we are a grp of poly students, and we are in a camp now."
me: " we just gone thru some training that teaches us how to use this booklet. we need to gather some feedbacks from it. can u all help us? ;D"
gal 1: " OKAY! SKIP THE SURVEY! STRAIGHT AWAY GO THROUGH WITH US!! "
hahahaha! she's so cute! xD
then after sharing, the 1st gal prayed and received christ! (:
yup! yay! then the 2nd and 3rd didn't. but its okay! xD
im still very happy! haha.
and the 3rd gal was actually a muslim!
i tot it was super scary to share with muslim and stuff!
but i actually did, unknowingly! HAHA! ;D
and lastly, i shared with a very friendly gal who was a christian on the satisfied booklet! xD
YAY!
it was a fruitful experience! (:
6:26 pm
Sunday, October 01, 2006
just wanted to post some photos.
elaborate another day. lol
taken on 1st October.
its growing towards the light.
this was its original front :(
close up view
my sis artpiece (:
